[In order to pull away, there has to be something to pull away from. It hurts to even think about pulling away from Riku, to keep his distance, and it makes him want to scream, to shout, to cry. That he believes that his soulmate, this person this world deemed to be his other half, doesn't want him. It's so easy to think that: no one ever wants Ven in the first place. Xehanort discarded him at the Land of Departure for being useless, and Eraqus was so ready to erase his very existence.
He's fine being alone. He's fine with being friends with the people he's gotten to know. He's fine with always being second or third - never being anyone's first.
No one would ever come to him for anything.
When Riku suddenly moves and grabs him, keeping him in place while he falls down to his knees, Ven has to fight hard to keep his expression calm.
At the plea, Ven blinks once in surprise before he sighs out softly, a gentle smile appearing on his face. With his other hand, he cups Riku's cheek.]
I'm not leaving. [Not yet. Not until he knows what Riku's answer will end up being.] But I want you to figure out how you feel, too, Riku. I'll still be around.
[He won't ever leave Riku. Yet he can't get close to him again either - not enough for that want to draw them close.]
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He's fine being alone. He's fine with being friends with the people he's gotten to know. He's fine with always being second or third - never being anyone's first.
No one would ever come to him for anything.
When Riku suddenly moves and grabs him, keeping him in place while he falls down to his knees, Ven has to fight hard to keep his expression calm.
At the plea, Ven blinks once in surprise before he sighs out softly, a gentle smile appearing on his face. With his other hand, he cups Riku's cheek.]
I'm not leaving. [Not yet. Not until he knows what Riku's answer will end up being.] But I want you to figure out how you feel, too, Riku. I'll still be around.
[He won't ever leave Riku. Yet he can't get close to him again either - not enough for that want to draw them close.]