[ Riku can sense- feel the confusion bubbling within Ven and it's only when the blond pulls away that he allows his own thoughts to catch up to him and try to push through the thick fog of desire that clouds his mind with nothing but Ven and this bond of theirs.
Swallowing, Riku holds his jacket by the tips of his fingers as he stares to the blond and notices the gentle brush of pink against his cheeks. It's the silence that seems to harm them, that cuts through any sort of desire of giving into each other and distorts it, fills them with insecurities, tries to change their minds disguised as reason. It's not helping them in any sort of way and for a long moment, Riku isn't sure what to say despite knowing this. ]
It's not you...
[ It's me? Is that what he really wants to say? It's the bond? That doesn't sound any better. But... it's not Ven's fault, it never has been and if there's anyone to blame for this it is him, despite what Ven may claim. He's the one that's been pretending this doesn't exist, that's been pining after Sora in silence, that's been trying to distance himself from Ven and it's not fair to the blond to suddenly give in like this without so much as taking the other's feelings into consideration.
So then... what does he say? What can he say to try and reassure Ven? To apologize for how he's been? How he's currently being? How he can't even promise him anything right now because he has no idea what he's feeling or what's happening himself? The thoughts have Riku sigh and bring a hand up to his face, shaking his head against his palm. ]
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Swallowing, Riku holds his jacket by the tips of his fingers as he stares to the blond and notices the gentle brush of pink against his cheeks. It's the silence that seems to harm them, that cuts through any sort of desire of giving into each other and distorts it, fills them with insecurities, tries to change their minds disguised as reason. It's not helping them in any sort of way and for a long moment, Riku isn't sure what to say despite knowing this. ]
It's not you...
[ It's me? Is that what he really wants to say? It's the bond? That doesn't sound any better. But... it's not Ven's fault, it never has been and if there's anyone to blame for this it is him, despite what Ven may claim. He's the one that's been pretending this doesn't exist, that's been pining after Sora in silence, that's been trying to distance himself from Ven and it's not fair to the blond to suddenly give in like this without so much as taking the other's feelings into consideration.
So then... what does he say? What can he say to try and reassure Ven? To apologize for how he's been? How he's currently being? How he can't even promise him anything right now because he has no idea what he's feeling or what's happening himself? The thoughts have Riku sigh and bring a hand up to his face, shaking his head against his palm. ]
You don't deserve this.
[ You don't deserve being stuck with me. ]